I want to attempt to shift my focus a bit. I’ve been dealing with the muck of life lately and it’s healthy, no matter how difficult it is. However, the world seem a little darker when all you talk about is how dark it is. This post is simply a list of things I’d like to do with the rest of my life. I’m writing them down here so they can become something tangible, and I’d encourage you to write yours down, too. It doesn’t have to be public, but do write them, even if you don’t think you’ll get the chance to do them.
I want to travel. I want to see God’s creations and I want to document it with pictures, words, and drawings. I want to stand in awe of my creator and learn about myself alongside my husband.
I want to feel free. I’m not sure what that might look like, but I’d love to see how it plays out.
I want to finish a journal. I want to fill it to the brim with the very breath from my lungs and to be unashamed if I have to cross out misspelled words or keep un-beautiful scribbles.
I want to feel useful. So much of my life has been wasted feeling like I was a burden, and I would love to know how it feels to be irreplaceable in the things I do.
I want to be an artist. I want to draw and paint and write and create because everything that we make is an echo of the creator. When we make something out of [nearly] nothing, we are acting like our Father, and nothing makes me feel more like me than being like Him.
I want to feel closer to God. That is an ongoing goal for the rest of my life, until the day I am united with Him for the rest of eternity, and I hope the choices I make in life only bring me closer to Him.
I want to beme. I feel as if I’ve lost myself in the last month and a half and in that time I’ve struggled with the idea of exactly who I am. Am I nerdy? Am I a hipster? Am I a bookworm? Does it matter? I want to be content in being undefined by social titles, and to rest in the fact that I am me, and I belong to God.
These aren’t the only things I want to do, but this is a very good start, and these things sum up most of what I want to accomplish. This isn’t a task list, but rather a hope for the days to come.